KittyBurbank

Feeling so defeated today. There's a sense of impending doom. Like I'm about to let down everyone who's looked with admiration at my ability to carry the burden. "You're so strong." I've heard it 100 times. But as I sit in my work cubicle powerless to prevent the tears and sniffles from overtaking me I wonder if we are not all deluded. I am not invincible. I may have already fallen. Is there anyway to know? Is depression not defeat? Is it temporary? Have I not already failed to reach my potential? Any power I thought I had seems so useless. Have I not been crippled? Pushed down and pushed aside-- once marginalized, how can one ret

They say whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I'm not so sure. I think it's more like what ever doesn't kill you in an instant might just be killing you slowly over a long period of time. Of course extreme stress isn't supposed to continue on relentlessly for years. There is supposed to be a break between contractions. And if not ... they recommend sleep, exercise, meditation, good nutrition, asking for and accepting help, simplifying as much as possible -- the things we are supposed to be doing anyway. I'm doing as many of these things as I can. I'm not sure they'll save me, though. I learned once that when you quit smoking your

They say whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I'm not so sure. I think it's more like what ever doesn't kill you in an instant might just be killing you slowly over a long period of time. Of course extreme stress isn't supposed to continue on relentlessly for years. There is supposed to be a break between contractions. And if not ... they recommend sleep, exercise, meditation, good nutrition, asking for and accepting help, simplifying as much as possible -- the things we are supposed to be doing anyway. I'm doing as many of these things as I can. I'm not sure they'll save me, though. I learned once that when you quit smoking your